Scared....??? YES... I am scared!!! Nervous... Anxious... um... yeah! I'm scared about this job... I'm nervous that I'm not going to be able to handle it... I'm anxious about the amount of work and type of work that will be put on my plate... All of this to the point that I'm having wicked weird dreams!! Last night I dreamed that I was enlisting in the Navy again... at my age (38 y/o)... and I was standing there for the physical... when I got to the point where they administer the hearing test.... The doctor was talking and talking but I could barely hear him... I couldn't even read his lips... which is something I'm use to doing (cause I'm deaf in my right ear and partially deaf in my left)... and he kept talking and talking and I couldn't understand him.. and he began to yell at me to try to get me to respond but I still couldn't hear him!!! What does this say to me??? Well I guess because I'll be wearing a head set for calls... maybe I'm afraid I'm going to screw up because I'm not going to be able to hear the person on the line... and if I screw up my QA (quality assurance) will be low and I'll not be able to advance... they won't keep me on the platform... or worse... FIRE ME!!! Scared...??? YES... I'm scared!!!
So today is payday... and I had huge plans... plans that included going and getting clothes for work... trying to find things that will make me look decent... and yet professional... even though it's casual work attire... I can't wear the stuff I'd like to to keep me comfy... I can't wear my yoga pants... or my leggings... basically jeans only with dress casual shirts and comfy shoes... BUT.... I am so tired... I needed to sleep... so I slept... and slept... and slept... and now it's too late to do anything... So I need to make sure that I save enough to go this weekend to get what I need... maybe take Nikki with me... get her out of the house... maybe spend some girlie time together... I don't know... but I need to make sure that things are taken care of before Monday!!!
Tonight is D's band concert... it was suppose to be before the holidays... but because of the snow we had and the storms... it got pushed back this far... He has been practicing for awhile now... it's amazing how much he loves what he does... how much passion he has for music... I can't wait to see him do his thing tonight. The last concert he had I didn't make it to cause I had just had my tooth extraction (bad tooth... had to have it removed... so much pain... lots of meds... stayed in bed).... so this is going to be special for me... I've not had the pleasure of sitting in the new auditorium at the new school... so I'm excited!! I always love hearing our band play... I love to see D in his element playing all the instruments that he is capable of playing... I am glad we got him the drum in 5th grade... I'm glad we made him practice... and I'm glad that he enjoys a creative outlet like the band and music!!!
Well I gatta run and get ready for Wes to come home... I need to prep dinner so we can eat after the concert... and I need to get the camera out to take pictures at the concert!!! Have an awesome afternoon.... Later!!!
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